Post by Stablerstolmyheart on Aug 22, 2006 15:58:19 GMT -5
*Heard a song, got an idea!
Title: October (Evanescence song)
Author: Me
Email: n/a
Website :n/a
Permission to archive: Sure why not
Fandom(s): SVU
Genre (general, hetero or slash) General
Pairing/Characters: E/O Friendship (kinda, Sorta)
Rating: PG
Summary: Elliot and Olivia come to an understanding and begin to Heal. (Yea, I know not that great of a summery)
Warnings: none
Notes: Song is the back drop for the story. Song is in italics (sry if its to long) Please let me know what you think. I open to any suggestions and comments.
I can’t run anymore, I fall before you,
Here I am ,I have nothing left,
Elliot sat at an intersection waiting for the light to change, thinking about the mess his life had become. He sighed He’d lost everything and his most recent screw up… Olivia. He hated himself for the way he treated her. They had yet another fight today and Olivia had been on the verge of tears… again. He knew couldn’t he couldn’t leave things this way. He needs her as much as she needs him. She was his rock, his strength and sanity and she didn’t deserve any of this.
Though I’ve tried to forget,
You’re all that I am, Take me home,
I’m through fighting this,Broken, Lifeless,
He was so tired of fighting and crying, sleepless nights, being alone, and every other weekend visits with the kids. How he missed and loved his kids. It simply wasn’t enough just to call and say good night. He wanted to be there to tuck them in and hug them. He was lost without his kids. At this stage it was all about the kids, he was too mad at Kathy to miss her. The only woman he loved and missed was his Liv. His Liv, he practically smiled at the thought of calling her his. But that was the truth she was his and he was hers, Always.
I give up,
You’re my only strength,
With out you, I can’t go on, Anymore, ever again
He frowned suddenly; there was talk of Olivia leaving again. That she couldn’t deal with the fighting. Casey told him that last time she spoke to Olivia that she was very upset and hated seeing him this way. That it was killing her. Shaken from his thoughts my the sound of the horn form the car behind him, instead of heading home, he put his blinker on and started for Olivia’s, they need to talk. He couldn’t loose her again, not ever. A tear slid down his cheek, soon followed by more. He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand and kept driving with determination.
My only hope
(All the times I’ve tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only Joy,
My only strength
There was always a fight for some reason or another. He hated that it had become so hard for them to even be civil to each other. She had come back to try to work things out but instead it got worse. Sure, for a while things were ok, to say the least. Then they started fighting again. Olivia looked so sad lately. Now that he thought about it she had looked exhausted. She was Pale, tired, and had gotten thin. He knew how she would go for days with out sleeping and eating very little. Her big brown eyes were dark and empty and she hadn’t smiled in a very long time. Not even a smirk at Fin and Munch’s stupid arguments. It’s started to rain.
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only Power, My only life
(And love is where I am)
My only love
Olivia sat curled up leaning her head on the window, her tears and the rain sliding down her reflection. She turned her face away from the window unable to control her tears or tolerate the pain any more. She’d been in this position for hours. To tired to move. She cried for her, Elliot, for everything. She was so lost and confused. Elliot was all she had in the world. She couldn’t go on with out him in her life, But if this is what life was going to be like with him she couldn’t do that either. Then again she loved him too much to loose him. The break had been ok. She thought things would be different when she got back and they were for a little while. At the sound of a car door closing she looked up. Her heart began to pound and her mind began to race. Was that him? Was he really here? Could they finally get better?
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Elliot stood in the pouring rain and looked up in to the dimly lit window and saw her staring back hurt, lost and confused. When she moved out of sight he made a b-line of the buzzer and began to push it over and over again franticly. He was so scared she wouldn’t answer.
I can’t run anymore,
I give myself to you.
I’m sorry, I’m sorry
Olivia ran to the panel on her wall near the door and pushed the button to let him in with out hesitation. This was going to end now. With out thinking she wrenched open the door, leaving it that way, ran for the stairs taking them two and three at a time. Her vision started to blur and there was a lump in her though. Then she met him half way down the second flight he was drenched and started to cry when he saw her tears which had started to fall with out her noticing. They stood for a few seconds before she reached out to him and he took her hand and pulled her to him. He was cold and wet but she didn’t care she just buried her face in his chest and held on with everything she had and all that she was.
In all my bitterness,
I forgot what’s real and true,
All I need is you,
He stood with her body pressed against his. They were both shaking and crying. She looked up and for the first time in along time there was clarity and hope in her eyes. “Olivia I”-… but, she cut him off “shh, I know.” She took his hand and led him up the stairs back to her apartment.
When night falls on me,
I’ll not close my eyes, I’m too alive,
She was wide awake now. As they walked in Olivia closed the door behind them, and then got Elliot a towel; she actually smiled at him as she stepped behind him and wrapped the towel and her arms around him. Elliot leaned into her embrace. “I never meant to hurt you, ever.” He said has he turned to face her she looked at him “but, you did, and more than once. You broke me Elliot.” He stared at her; a sad look in his eye. “Liv, I can’t do this any more I need you. I just hope it’s not too late.” She led him over to the couch; they sat putting some space between them. “Please don’t go, please don’t leave me, not now not ever.” He said with desperation in his voice and tears in his eyes. “I need you too much I can’t be with out you” “I won’t leave you El. Ever.” She said her voice thick with tears
And you’re too strong,
I can’t lie anymore, I fall down before you
“I know this is gonna take sometime.” She said. “But, you have to promise me something, El You have to let me help you. We can’t go on like this. Stop pushing me away.” Elliot nodded “I won’t I promise.” I need you too much. I can’t breathe with out you.” Olivia moved closer. “It hurts me so much to see you like this.” Her voice cracked with emotion. “Come’ ere”, he said and she crawled in to his arms.
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry.
“Please forgive me Liv” Please forgive me” Elliot said through his tears. “I know I screwed up big time but”- She cut him off “I forgive you” I forgive you”. “And do you know why? Because I love you and you’re my best friend.” She replied through her own tears.
My only hope,
(All the time’s I’ve tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away form you)
My only Joy,
“We’re different people now and we’re about to go down along and winding road. I want to be by your side and I need you by mine” she said once she had calmed down. “I’ll be there the whole way.” He replied. “When everything started falling apart, I couldn’t handle it and I just snapped I took things out on you that weren’t your fault” he looked at her. “I am so so sorry Liv” “I know” she said “I’m sorry too, I should have backed off when you told me to.”
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
Constantly Ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it’s cut too deep,
I’ll never stray gain.
“I couldn’t take it anymore, us not talking” he said “When you left, that’s when I knew I hit rock bottom” “I can’t go through that again. Please don’t make me go through that again.” “I won’t but, you under stand why I left. We needed sometime. To think and put our lives back together.” “Now it time to heal.” Elliot looked at her “It’s time for you to promise me something” “ok tell me; anything. What ever it is” She said ready to give her whole life to him ant thing to stop his endless torment “Promise me we’ll get through this no matter what. Please Liv Promise me.” She cupped his face in her hands. “I promise” then she kissed his cheek.
My only hope,
(All the times I’ve tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only Joy, My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
They talked late into the night. Olivia had fallen to sleep curled up in Elliot’s arms and he too had dozed off for a while. Elliot woke a short while later to find himself still in Olivia’s apartment with her in his arms. He looked at her clock it was 3a. m. “Wow I can’t believe it’s this late already” he yawn, stretched and picked up Liv and carried her into the bed room.
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
She woke with a start when he laid her on the bed and tried to cover. “What’s wrong” Elliot asked quickly. “Nothing, I just…” she said looking around her room trying to gather her surroundings. “Just what?” She looked up at him “Will you stay, please?” “Of course Elliot said “Now try to get some sleep.” Has he moved to get up she grabbed his hand and said quickly “I meant here with me.” “I really don’t want to be alone” “Ok” I’ll stay he said with a small smile.” Then he lay next to her. “Thank you” she said. Your welcome” “El…” “Yes” “Hold me, again like you did before.” He wrapped his arms around her and held her as close as he could. Olivia looked up at him “I love you” she whispered. “I love you too.” He replied as they drifted off to sleep in each others arms. They both knew they were exactly where they belonged.
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Title: October (Evanescence song)
Author: Me
Email: n/a
Website :n/a
Permission to archive: Sure why not
Fandom(s): SVU
Genre (general, hetero or slash) General
Pairing/Characters: E/O Friendship (kinda, Sorta)
Rating: PG
Summary: Elliot and Olivia come to an understanding and begin to Heal. (Yea, I know not that great of a summery)
Warnings: none
Notes: Song is the back drop for the story. Song is in italics (sry if its to long) Please let me know what you think. I open to any suggestions and comments.
I can’t run anymore, I fall before you,
Here I am ,I have nothing left,
Elliot sat at an intersection waiting for the light to change, thinking about the mess his life had become. He sighed He’d lost everything and his most recent screw up… Olivia. He hated himself for the way he treated her. They had yet another fight today and Olivia had been on the verge of tears… again. He knew couldn’t he couldn’t leave things this way. He needs her as much as she needs him. She was his rock, his strength and sanity and she didn’t deserve any of this.
Though I’ve tried to forget,
You’re all that I am, Take me home,
I’m through fighting this,Broken, Lifeless,
He was so tired of fighting and crying, sleepless nights, being alone, and every other weekend visits with the kids. How he missed and loved his kids. It simply wasn’t enough just to call and say good night. He wanted to be there to tuck them in and hug them. He was lost without his kids. At this stage it was all about the kids, he was too mad at Kathy to miss her. The only woman he loved and missed was his Liv. His Liv, he practically smiled at the thought of calling her his. But that was the truth she was his and he was hers, Always.
I give up,
You’re my only strength,
With out you, I can’t go on, Anymore, ever again
He frowned suddenly; there was talk of Olivia leaving again. That she couldn’t deal with the fighting. Casey told him that last time she spoke to Olivia that she was very upset and hated seeing him this way. That it was killing her. Shaken from his thoughts my the sound of the horn form the car behind him, instead of heading home, he put his blinker on and started for Olivia’s, they need to talk. He couldn’t loose her again, not ever. A tear slid down his cheek, soon followed by more. He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand and kept driving with determination.
My only hope
(All the times I’ve tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only Joy,
My only strength
There was always a fight for some reason or another. He hated that it had become so hard for them to even be civil to each other. She had come back to try to work things out but instead it got worse. Sure, for a while things were ok, to say the least. Then they started fighting again. Olivia looked so sad lately. Now that he thought about it she had looked exhausted. She was Pale, tired, and had gotten thin. He knew how she would go for days with out sleeping and eating very little. Her big brown eyes were dark and empty and she hadn’t smiled in a very long time. Not even a smirk at Fin and Munch’s stupid arguments. It’s started to rain.
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only Power, My only life
(And love is where I am)
My only love
Olivia sat curled up leaning her head on the window, her tears and the rain sliding down her reflection. She turned her face away from the window unable to control her tears or tolerate the pain any more. She’d been in this position for hours. To tired to move. She cried for her, Elliot, for everything. She was so lost and confused. Elliot was all she had in the world. She couldn’t go on with out him in her life, But if this is what life was going to be like with him she couldn’t do that either. Then again she loved him too much to loose him. The break had been ok. She thought things would be different when she got back and they were for a little while. At the sound of a car door closing she looked up. Her heart began to pound and her mind began to race. Was that him? Was he really here? Could they finally get better?
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Elliot stood in the pouring rain and looked up in to the dimly lit window and saw her staring back hurt, lost and confused. When she moved out of sight he made a b-line of the buzzer and began to push it over and over again franticly. He was so scared she wouldn’t answer.
I can’t run anymore,
I give myself to you.
I’m sorry, I’m sorry
Olivia ran to the panel on her wall near the door and pushed the button to let him in with out hesitation. This was going to end now. With out thinking she wrenched open the door, leaving it that way, ran for the stairs taking them two and three at a time. Her vision started to blur and there was a lump in her though. Then she met him half way down the second flight he was drenched and started to cry when he saw her tears which had started to fall with out her noticing. They stood for a few seconds before she reached out to him and he took her hand and pulled her to him. He was cold and wet but she didn’t care she just buried her face in his chest and held on with everything she had and all that she was.
In all my bitterness,
I forgot what’s real and true,
All I need is you,
He stood with her body pressed against his. They were both shaking and crying. She looked up and for the first time in along time there was clarity and hope in her eyes. “Olivia I”-… but, she cut him off “shh, I know.” She took his hand and led him up the stairs back to her apartment.
When night falls on me,
I’ll not close my eyes, I’m too alive,
She was wide awake now. As they walked in Olivia closed the door behind them, and then got Elliot a towel; she actually smiled at him as she stepped behind him and wrapped the towel and her arms around him. Elliot leaned into her embrace. “I never meant to hurt you, ever.” He said has he turned to face her she looked at him “but, you did, and more than once. You broke me Elliot.” He stared at her; a sad look in his eye. “Liv, I can’t do this any more I need you. I just hope it’s not too late.” She led him over to the couch; they sat putting some space between them. “Please don’t go, please don’t leave me, not now not ever.” He said with desperation in his voice and tears in his eyes. “I need you too much I can’t be with out you” “I won’t leave you El. Ever.” She said her voice thick with tears
And you’re too strong,
I can’t lie anymore, I fall down before you
“I know this is gonna take sometime.” She said. “But, you have to promise me something, El You have to let me help you. We can’t go on like this. Stop pushing me away.” Elliot nodded “I won’t I promise.” I need you too much. I can’t breathe with out you.” Olivia moved closer. “It hurts me so much to see you like this.” Her voice cracked with emotion. “Come’ ere”, he said and she crawled in to his arms.
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry.
“Please forgive me Liv” Please forgive me” Elliot said through his tears. “I know I screwed up big time but”- She cut him off “I forgive you” I forgive you”. “And do you know why? Because I love you and you’re my best friend.” She replied through her own tears.
My only hope,
(All the time’s I’ve tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away form you)
My only Joy,
“We’re different people now and we’re about to go down along and winding road. I want to be by your side and I need you by mine” she said once she had calmed down. “I’ll be there the whole way.” He replied. “When everything started falling apart, I couldn’t handle it and I just snapped I took things out on you that weren’t your fault” he looked at her. “I am so so sorry Liv” “I know” she said “I’m sorry too, I should have backed off when you told me to.”
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
Constantly Ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it’s cut too deep,
I’ll never stray gain.
“I couldn’t take it anymore, us not talking” he said “When you left, that’s when I knew I hit rock bottom” “I can’t go through that again. Please don’t make me go through that again.” “I won’t but, you under stand why I left. We needed sometime. To think and put our lives back together.” “Now it time to heal.” Elliot looked at her “It’s time for you to promise me something” “ok tell me; anything. What ever it is” She said ready to give her whole life to him ant thing to stop his endless torment “Promise me we’ll get through this no matter what. Please Liv Promise me.” She cupped his face in her hands. “I promise” then she kissed his cheek.
My only hope,
(All the times I’ve tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only Joy, My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
They talked late into the night. Olivia had fallen to sleep curled up in Elliot’s arms and he too had dozed off for a while. Elliot woke a short while later to find himself still in Olivia’s apartment with her in his arms. He looked at her clock it was 3a. m. “Wow I can’t believe it’s this late already” he yawn, stretched and picked up Liv and carried her into the bed room.
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
She woke with a start when he laid her on the bed and tried to cover. “What’s wrong” Elliot asked quickly. “Nothing, I just…” she said looking around her room trying to gather her surroundings. “Just what?” She looked up at him “Will you stay, please?” “Of course Elliot said “Now try to get some sleep.” Has he moved to get up she grabbed his hand and said quickly “I meant here with me.” “I really don’t want to be alone” “Ok” I’ll stay he said with a small smile.” Then he lay next to her. “Thank you” she said. Your welcome” “El…” “Yes” “Hold me, again like you did before.” He wrapped his arms around her and held her as close as he could. Olivia looked up at him “I love you” she whispered. “I love you too.” He replied as they drifted off to sleep in each others arms. They both knew they were exactly where they belonged.
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.