Post by Trublu on Sept 25, 2006 20:27:23 GMT -5
I just found this sitting on my hard drive. I totally forgot I had written it!
Title: Tonight
Permission to archive: Ask first.
Pairing/Characters: C/O (hinting, no names)
Rating: K+
Summary: The world is different tonight.
Warnings: Character death
11:56 PM
I've never liked hospitals, ever since I was a little girl. Since the first time I stepped foot in one, after my mother's accident, I always knew that they were never a good place to be. I could feel the death; see the fear in the patients' eyes. The sobs of distraught family members became so loud that I had to cover my ears to keep from going crazy. After my mother died, I never wanted to set foot in one again, and I had done a pretty good job of avoiding them. Until today. Why tonight, of all nights? Why is it this night, and not last night or tomorrow? Did it have to happen at all? I guess I'll never know, because I'm sitting here tonight, waiting for the doctor to tell me that you're ok.
11:57 PM
You're not supposed to get hurt; you're not supposed to die. I have half a mind to walk into the operating room right now and yell until my throat burns and my head turns blue. If it weren't for Elliot and the captain sitting here, I think I might. I can't stand the thought of losing you now, not after all we've been through. Why tonight, why this raid? It should have been like any other raid. Walk in, draw your gun, and keep it trained while the arrest is made. No shooting, no mess. But I guess I'll never know, because I'm sitting here tonight, after the suspect drew a gun and fired.
11:58 PM
I got the call at 5:55, my favorite number across the board. I was waiting for you at home, like we'd planned. Spent hours going over reservations and flights, all for our first vacation in ages, our first trip together. Our bags are still by the door, waiting for their owners to come back and throw them into the back of a cab and speed off. Moscow, we'd decided, half a world away but the same busy world we are used to all the same. Why tonight, when you had waited for this, wanted this so long? It's everything we've been dreaming of. I was going to propose to you there, tonight, on Christmas Eve. Guess I'll never know, because I'm sitting here tonight, ripping the airline tickets in my hands.
11:59 PM
Scenes of us together keep replaying in my head. I can't stop them, but I don't know if I want to. Our first date, our first kiss, our first fight, and the stuff that came after. The first "I love you" and every one after that, the last "be safe". Why tonight, when I was finally going to show you just how much I love you. I'm praying with everything I have left in me. But the doctor walks out, and hands me your badge. And I know it's not enough. Because I'm sitting here tonight, and you're not.
12:00
Title: Tonight
Permission to archive: Ask first.
Pairing/Characters: C/O (hinting, no names)
Rating: K+
Summary: The world is different tonight.
Warnings: Character death
11:56 PM
I've never liked hospitals, ever since I was a little girl. Since the first time I stepped foot in one, after my mother's accident, I always knew that they were never a good place to be. I could feel the death; see the fear in the patients' eyes. The sobs of distraught family members became so loud that I had to cover my ears to keep from going crazy. After my mother died, I never wanted to set foot in one again, and I had done a pretty good job of avoiding them. Until today. Why tonight, of all nights? Why is it this night, and not last night or tomorrow? Did it have to happen at all? I guess I'll never know, because I'm sitting here tonight, waiting for the doctor to tell me that you're ok.
11:57 PM
You're not supposed to get hurt; you're not supposed to die. I have half a mind to walk into the operating room right now and yell until my throat burns and my head turns blue. If it weren't for Elliot and the captain sitting here, I think I might. I can't stand the thought of losing you now, not after all we've been through. Why tonight, why this raid? It should have been like any other raid. Walk in, draw your gun, and keep it trained while the arrest is made. No shooting, no mess. But I guess I'll never know, because I'm sitting here tonight, after the suspect drew a gun and fired.
11:58 PM
I got the call at 5:55, my favorite number across the board. I was waiting for you at home, like we'd planned. Spent hours going over reservations and flights, all for our first vacation in ages, our first trip together. Our bags are still by the door, waiting for their owners to come back and throw them into the back of a cab and speed off. Moscow, we'd decided, half a world away but the same busy world we are used to all the same. Why tonight, when you had waited for this, wanted this so long? It's everything we've been dreaming of. I was going to propose to you there, tonight, on Christmas Eve. Guess I'll never know, because I'm sitting here tonight, ripping the airline tickets in my hands.
11:59 PM
Scenes of us together keep replaying in my head. I can't stop them, but I don't know if I want to. Our first date, our first kiss, our first fight, and the stuff that came after. The first "I love you" and every one after that, the last "be safe". Why tonight, when I was finally going to show you just how much I love you. I'm praying with everything I have left in me. But the doctor walks out, and hands me your badge. And I know it's not enough. Because I'm sitting here tonight, and you're not.
12:00